Stuck. I’m just stuck. In the past 10 1/2 months I have undergone 4 eye surgeries which have left me unable to travel above 1,000 ft., unable to lift anything heavier than a gallon of milk, unable to move too fast, pick up my grandkids, work in my garden, and unable to see well.

So I find myself in a rather sedentary state and it’s driving me crazy! Yes, I’m complaining. It feels good. It feels cathartic. Sorry to be whiney.

Hopefully, this will be the last leg of this journey. I am slowly regaining some vision in that eye and I am so thankful for that. I am also so very grateful to the wonderful doctors that saved my sight and possibly my eye after the extremely rare infection that made me part of the statistical odds. Yes, what are the odds? I was one of unlucky ones that got “struck by lightning”.

So despite being stuck in sedentary mode, I am getting through this. I will get through this. I am hopeful that my vision will return to what it was: 20/20, but I will be ecstatic to have just “pretty good” vision in that eye. I feel a new empathy , respect for the blind. I cherish my eyesight more now more than ever. I never thought I would lose it and thankfully, it is expected to return. I cannot imagine how those who were born blind or later became blind can deal with it.

I saw an amazing thing while leaving MA Eye & Ear one afternoon. A beautiful young woman was standing at the curb just outside the building. Her long red hair was being lightly blown by the breeze. She was blind and had the most angelic , peaceful smile on her face. She was ” seeing” that warm breeze and the bright sun on her face. I don’t know if she was truly as happy as she looked , but she inspired me and left me with a sense of peace.

I have had so much support from friends and family. I am so lucky and appreciative for all the prayers said on my behalf and for everyone who has given me encouragement. Our kids have been wonderful! I love them to bits! It also has been so helpful to hear from friends who have had similar experiences and are now doing great! I am hoping I finally follow suit and get back to normal again soon.

The farm has been going along without me (us) but we have a great guy managing things in our absence and wonderful neighbors who are always so willing to help. I am incredibly thankful for them and to them.

I am anxious to get back to our peaceful mountain but in the meantime, I will live slowly and carefully and be grateful for my many blessings. Seven little blessings, and our sons and daughters-in-law. One wonderful hubby and the rest is frosting on the cake!

And of course, it’s not all about me. 🙂